Let's preface this by saying it'll
be difficult to write this in a way that doesn't make Stephanie and I seem bad,
mean, uncouth, insensitive, and cold. That said, my mission here is to write
about Stephanie and I, and this is one of our stories, so it's gotta be told.
For three years, Stephanie and I
lived in Kansas City. We arrived in July of 2001, and as we found an apartment
and looked for jobs, coverage of a young child's murder was all over the local
news.
This gets gruesome: She was an unidentified black
girl, judged to be three or four years old, who'd been beaten to death. Her naked, decapitated body was found near a city
park, and her head was found in a trash bin several days later. Yet no-one had
reported a missing child matching the girl's description, so the cops and reporters
didn't know who she was. Rather than calling her Unidentified Victim, she was
dubbed Precious Doe.
For many, many weeks, the murder and
mystery of Precious Doe was all over the local newspaper and newscasts, and was
the topic of coffee shop chit-chat everywhere we went. To quote the Kansas
City Star's ubiquitous questions: "Who was she? Who killed her? Had
anyone reported her missing? Did anyone care?"
Then came 9/11/2001, which of course
dominated all news on all channels for a long while, but even after 9/11,
Precious Doe was frequently in the news. Not that there was much of any "news"
about her case; the news was mostly that there were still no leads, or it was
coverage about concerned, sympathetic Kansas Citizens who'd left flowers and
toys at the place where her body had been found.
After months
of relentless coverage of this awful news, it might have been Steph but I think
it was me who said, "This poor, dead girl who's been labelled 'Precious'
must not have actually been precious to anyone, or someone would've reported
her missing. Someone would know who she was."
And let me stress again, it's absolutely
horrific what happened to that kid. But after months and months of coverage
with nothing new to report, it became tiresome.
"There are lots of
families in the KC metro, black and white, who live in poverty, live with domestic
violence, same as anywhere else in America, but the newspapers don't call any
of these people 'precious' until their head gets chopped off." Not sure
whether that was Stephanie talking or me, but we were agreed.
And after that, we came up with a
song. No, I don't remember who concocted the lyrics, and yeah, it's a mocking
song, but we were mocking the situation, certainly not mocking the victim. I
don't know how to do music notation so I can't provide the tune, but these are
the lyrics we sang, whenever yet another news item mentioned
this poor, dead child:
Precious Doe!
Precious Doe!
Why did her head
Have to go?
Of course, it's awful. It's gallows
humor, and it's not even funny gallows humor … but we laughed at it. It was our
way to ward off the futility of what seemed to be endless coverage detailing
every aspect of the crime except who the heck this kid really was, and
who killed her, and why.
In 2004, we left Kansas City and
moved to Wisconsin, where if Precious Doe made headlines at all, they were much,
much smaller headlines and we never saw them. But we still occasionally sang
the song, in response to extremely bad news that nobody could do anything
about. Three days of coverage of a deadly plane crash? We'd sing the song.
Some missing skier's corpse is found frozen solid? We'd sing the song. It
became our anthem for responding to senselessness.
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Ten years later, Stephanie had to
face some senselessness, and her own mortality. She was 42 years old, living a fairly ordinary life but
she loved it, and she loved me. We thought we might have a lot of good
years remaining together, and then … blam, out of the blue, an emergency
hospitalization and a diagnosis of kidney failure.
Stephanie was discharged from the hospital
a few days later, and as I drove us home and we talked in the car, I was impressed
with how well she was handling the worst news she'd ever heard. We both knew she
had a shorter life ahead of her than we'd expected even a few weeks earlier,
and yet, she remained generally sanguine.
As we waited at a stop light, she
said, "Everything about this situation sucks and sooner or later it's
going to kill me. Sure hope it's later."
"I hope so too, Steph. Lots and
lots later."
"So we'll follow doctor's
orders, I'll take whatever medicines they tell me to take, I'll go on dialysis,
and I'll have a lot less of a life than I've had — both in quality and in
quantity — but we'll make it work. We will make it work."
"Dang right," I said.
"I love you, and we'll make it work."
"And you know what else?"
she said, and then she said nothing for a block or so, until she took a deep
breath and sang the song, our ode to senselessness:
Precious Doe!
Precious Doe!
Why did her head
Have to go?
I joined in for the last two lines,
and we laughed and laughed the rest of the way home. We sang that song again, not
often but occasionally, when the odds against us seemed insurmountable. It's
bonkers, sure, but that stupid song about that terrible murder of that unidentified
headless girl helped us to face plenty of senselessness during the last years of Stephanie's life.
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Until today, I didn't know that the
mystery of Precious Doe had been solved in 2005. Here's what I've learned, from some
internet searches while writing today's entry:
The little girl called Precious Doe was
actually Erica Michelle Marie Green. She was born in 1997, in an Oklahoma
prison where her mother was serving time for prostitution. Apparently, state
officials made little or no effort to keep tabs on the baby, and she was
halfheartedly cared for by a cousin of her imprisoned mother's husband. When
the child's mother was released from prison, she and her lowlife husband took
custody of Erica, and everyone in the family seems to have known that she was being beaten by her stepfather on a regular basis, but nobody called the cops or said
anything to anyone. One night, under the influence of alcohol and PCP, Erica's
stepfather bludgeoned her to death with an ashtray, and a few days later he used
hedge clippers to cut off her head, thinking that would make the murder impossible to solve.
Erica Michelle Marie Green was unwanted
and unloved in life, and "precious" only to strangers and only after
she was dead. It's an utterly ghastly story, and the closest it comes to a
happy ending is that Erica's stepfather, Harrell Johnson, was convicted of
first-degree murder and imprisoned for life.